圣诞节

一个不愉快的圣诞节。。

原以为会开心的参加倒数派对。。

结果。。。

不愉快的事发生了。。

第一次被人在路旁大声的骂喊。。

丢脸死了。。

第一次你那么大声的对我说话。。。

一起那么久你依然不懂我。。。

我是个怎样的人难道你没搞懂吗？

每一次的吵架让我觉得很累了。。。

也许是我自私。。

我没能做到体谅你。。

越吵感情就越淡了。。

是习惯了还是我的要求越来越高了？

还是我的心已经不在他那里了？

是我变了吗？

唉。。。有时候觉得一个人好像也不错。。

我开始不喜欢交待自己的去向了。。。

我想要自由。。

做什么都不用顾虑太多。。

我只想拥有自己的生活。。

做我自己。。

Working life

everyday wake up...

prepare myself for work....

until midnight jz finish work....

everyday repeat the same thing....

that was my recently life...

everyday think for working staff...

before sleep and wake up the last and first thing is to think

what i haven done or what should i do today?

that was my life....

less entertainment...

less enjoyment..

maybe i still cant find the balancing...

i still finding a way to make my life more colorful...

but how??

how to improve my performance??

how to reduce my stress???

how to make myself more alert and more efficiency???

im still leaning and learning....

i need to face different kind of problem everyday...

i wish i can handle it....

but i have no confident on it....

what to do to build up my confident??

aikzzz....

i couldn't get the answer for myself....

i just wanna shout out

'' I AM TIRED''

after that i will refresh my mind and ready to face anther day....

i may not very useful....

but at lease i am not that worse....

because every person have their own value...

My value will be appreciate some day =)

I am tired =(

the sixth day i work...

hmm....i am scare of everything....

my working life is just finish work then bk hm....

everday repeat de same thing...

im feel bored of it...

I NEED SOME ENTERTAIN...

*stress*

this job is not fun and interesting...

maybe im still a beginner...

people expect me know everything once i work...

although i dunno everything, but Please respect me even i am just a trainee...

if i can do all ur job learn ur thing in 6days then u had work there for long,u should shame on urself...u can teach me but not in a command manner...

You don't respect me is ok...i am OK with it....

but please follow the company rules&regulation, if u still wanna continue work.

Don't think that i am good to bully, i have my limit and don't try to challenge it....

coz i dun wan myself to be so cruel...

after step into work field,what i knew is people is really selfish...

no people will help u if u don't know....

people scare to get into any responsibility....

people will bully if u're NEW...

people never follow the rules,this is always the problem....

hmm....i jz realize i never laugh loud loud from heart since i had start to work....

before sleep i have to think what i should do in another working day...

after wake up i have to think what did i forgot to do?

i even feel i have no value during working time....

i am useless with settle anything...

i even no time for my darl =(

sorry for that....maybe i jz still not use to it with the situation...

pls give me some time to settle all this....

thats alot thing and problem appear everyday....

i am scare >.< but i know i have to be brave....

becoz HUMAN is Selfish...

i guess no one understand my feeling now...

i only use *cry* to express my burden....

God bless me Please...

i need ur hand to help me....

Holiday =)

im still on holiday mood...

recently looking at ccm's pic that take with those coursemate who are proceed to advance...

it make me miss them...

i miss the time while at kampar...

we when to class together...

we when to eat together =(

i Miss all of You...

*Good News*

i had start when to gym for 2days =)

my muscle is pain >.<

tomolo add oil...keep fit keep fit...

Another Bad day =(

Actually is not that bad as i think...

im get ready to accept de fact...

Result come out....

i know i cannot graduate...

this time im not that sad, maybe i know it since from the early...

i tell myself...

is ok, never mind...i had try my best...

what should i do now is look forward for new job...

New job wanted =)

wish me Good Luck

Bad day =(

Never think that it will happen to my house...

that night i lose my laptop and some money...

thief come in my house on midnight...

i and my mum dont even release it until my neighbour uncle call my mum around 6am...

the first thing while i come down, i saw my laptop had lose =(

every single part of house also had been find by the thief...

two laptop lose...

rm200++ lose

lucky those important thing like IC, Lesen and ATM card didn lose..

after that night i cant even sleep well...

i will wake up once i heard some noise...

i Miss my Laptop >.<

♥Thursday ♥

考完试的第一天。。。

心情应该开心。。

但是却反而心情百感交集。。。

脱离了考试是应该开心的。。

但是这一刻只有不舍的心情。。。

生活一起了两年多的朋友。。。

从陌生到熟悉。。

我们的一点一滴。。。

生活了两年的房间，屋子和回忆。。

这都是我还没可以放得下的。。。

虽然努力的说服自己天下没有不散的宴席。。。

但是我还没可以习惯。。。

不习惯不回来的日子。。

不习惯没有大家陪吃饭，陪逛逛的日子。。

不习惯突然的改变。。

自由的鸟最终还是要飞回笼里了。。

心情当然不舍得咯。。

这几天在金宝的朋友status都写得让人忍不住眼泪。。

这之后也许大家都各散东西了。。

也不知什么时候才会有机会再相聚。。

所以大家显得特别珍惜现在有的时间。。。

同屋了两年的屋友。。

nick：谢谢你管理有方才不让我们烦水电，房主费。。谢谢你的勇敢帮我们清除蟑螂。。

joyi：以后就没多少机会你说心里话了，以后不能帮你吹头发，挖耳朵了。。

一班闹了两年多的朋友。。

ccm：谢谢你的陪伴，我们真的认识太久了。。（老朋友）

Abby：要长大了，不要老是觉得自己很丑。。其实你并没有。。以后要学会自信一点。。

Koh：谢谢你每天都陪坐在身边，谢谢你的体谅。。不要再emo了啦。。

Victor：以后不能再陪你闹了。。没有人再被我吓，被我打屁股了。。

Junhao：不要再常常睡觉了，上课要专心。。还有保养一下那个脸。。

我们都一起度过了。。

大概是时候说再见了。。

谢谢你们的陪伴。。

我会好好收起我们的回忆。。

这两年多有你们的陪伴我的生活变得不一样了。。

如果有任何冒犯请原谅我。。。

改天有时间要约出来。。

可能今年的生日不能再同一个地方同一班人马庆祝了。。

谢谢过去的生日都为我庆祝。。。

有空我会拿出来想想回忆一下。。

我拥有得比谁都多。。

因为我有你们。。。

希望大家都能找到一片属于自己的一片天空。。

寻找自己的快乐和自信。。

加油。。前面的路还很长。。