kekeke...

happy moment always pass so fast....

hmm...after two days at ipoh,

felt dun wan come back kampar jor...

feel lazy to come back my busy life...

hahaha...

assignment...

class...

study...

discussion...

omg...suck...

saturday and sunday is the only day for me to relax...

i like to go back...

i miss my home...

my parents..

that for sure,is my boyfriend...

hahaha...

miss so much..

last week i go back ipoh for my new spec...

new spec...

after four year,finaly i change my spec...

becoz of some reason i change it...

this spec spend me bout rm4??

hmm...quite expensive nia...

is that sui for me??

nice??

hahaha...

now i can drive even at night....

hahaha...

i like this spec...

last saturday,i watch "transformer" wif my bf...

nice movie...for my opinion...

hahaha...

this is my first time saw so many people and

de popcorn also out of stock...

each time for 'transformer" movie all also full...

haha...

love the feel together wif him...

kekeke...

my busy life is started...

back to college life, i have to start to study hard...

add oil on my assignment...

but it seem i still very lazy to do it...

dun know why,

i feel i got a bit distance with study...

i dun even have idea on my assignment....

sometime cant concentrate when on class...

feel myself is useless...

like many thing that i haven done...

and very rush with my time...

dun have the energy to push me done everything....

i feel scare...i scare i will fail...

but this sem i promise i really try to study when i was free...

i try to force myself dont on de laptop...

try to less go out yumcha...

the time past too fast...

many thing that i haven done, is aready pass one day...

that was life....

time dont wait us...

everyday wake up in de morning...

sometime afternoon...

then attend the class...

finish class go back home..

then discussion with group members....

sometime was free....

then until midnite...go sleep...

like that...one day pass...

it was fast and dont realize...

sometime hope i can have more time to sleep,

and more time for myself....

thanks for my classmate n group members...

they always help me alot...

sometime i dont even have time spend to my dear...

sorry ya...

both of us also busy with our study...

sometime also dun have time to chat much with him...

miss him so much...

now we less meet....

less chat...

but i hope it dont affect our relationship...

we stil have saturday n sunday to meet....

but our time become less and less...

every week also wish to reach friday fast...

wish to go home...

everytime back to hometown...

then sunday dont wish to come back...

aikz....what a lazy girl...

kekeke...

but it feel good that have friends here...

haha...

pls 'lazy' far away from me...

'relationship'

what mean relationship...

there can be friend relationship...

there can be parents relationship...

there can be couple relationship...

but in every different relationship,there also have the way

to communicate...

there are always have many problem between each relationship...

why couple relationship must be so much problem??

argue...

fight...

hurt...

dissapointed...

this all also spoil the relationship...

but why still have people do all those thing??

human always like that...

somtime really dont know how to continue maintain the relationship...

im tired...

im sad...

im dissapointed...

im worth....

im moody...

dont know what to do...

who will help??

no people!!!

why people will fall in love??

why a relationship will appear so many problem??

why got argue???

suck...

love is trouble...

but sometime is sweet and warm...

i miss him..

i love him...

but the feel is different with de feel when we start...

everything is change..

i miss our memory...

i miss the time we was happy together...

i miss the time when you 'qian jiu' me...

can we turn back the time???

what a hot midnight!!

hot until i cannot sleep well...

hmmm....this few days the weather also like that...

it make us feel suffer...

even after bath,but still sweating...

lolz...

today is wednesday...

becouse now is midnight aready...

the third day that u back to kampar...

yesterday is my first day attend class...

emm...suddenly i have to know a lot of new student...

a new condition...

a new group....

a new lecturer...

a new life style...

everything like new to me...

lucky i still have friends accompany me...

i quite scare to be alone...

it dont make me feel good...

thank you for everyone who beside me...

include my boyfriend,classmate,roommate and some friends...

becouse of them,i dont feel lonely...

hehe..^^

after lazy for one year...

now back to study life...

is realy quite hard for me...

i scare i cannot follow the step...

but i will try my best to complete my assignment...

hope everything will be fine soon...

now every week,only saturday n sunday will be at ipoh...

miss home...

miss my bed...

kekekeke...

haiz...danish wireless is suck...

need to wait until midnight only can online..

boring...>.<

hope tomolo is a good day for me....

承诺总是让人受伤。。

相信吗？

说过的东西却做不到？

这就是承诺吗？

那承诺总是自私的。。

promise always is sweet....

always good to hear it...

but...once u cant keep your promise...

it will become

horror...

hurt...

bad...

n ugly...

so dont always easy to make promise to someone...

or make promise the one that u love...

when you cant do it...

all the promise will become lie...

no people will like the feel who lie her/him...

promise will make people get hurt...

once u make the promise,

make sure you can do it then you only make the promise...

if you not sure then please dont make the promise...

dont make the one that u love feel dissapointed...

promise always make people hurt and sad..

Dont ever promise anyone...

becouse promise is hurt...

can you promise me...

dont break my heart again???

another chance i gift him...

hope he wont make me dissapointed again...

i hope he realy prove to me he was change...

haha...

finally i choose to create another new blog...

becouse...

i forgot my password...no matter how i try stil cannot sign in...

sad nia..so,i have no choice...

i really cant remember my password...

kekeke..paiseh...

hmm...dunno when i can go back kampar??!!

the class aready start,but i still haven receive my offer letter...

how am i follow the clas??

some they aready want start they assignment o...

i hope i can follow...i dont wan fail my diploma..

im very scare now...

can i follow the class??

can i join together with my classmate??

a lot of question in my heart...

but it since i haven ready for my study...

maybe i aready stp study for one year...

play until now no heart study aready...

kekeke...

but i will try my best...

hope everything is goin smooth..

everything will be fine...

everthing will be ok...

' Why do i have to be so SAD '
that is becouse i love you...
becouse i love you that why i be so sad...
today is second day we argue...
today whole day,my handphone didn appear his call or sms...
we agree to gift each other some silent moment...
again i feel dissapointed....
becouse someone who done wrong thing,
he didn mean to tam fan me....
it make me feel sad...
maybe i realy nothing for him...
maybe i dont have to be so sad...
since i control my emotion for few days...
i think continue after the few days,
i still can stand for it...
i will make myself become more brave n happy..
i dont wish my parents worry about me...
i still have my life to continue...
somemore i know he wont becouse of me,
gift up his entertain...
even argue with me he still will go out with friends...
so..maybe i should like him...
maybe after more few days,
i will back to my study life...
i have to prepare for it...
this time i will study hard...
i dont wish to let my parents dissapointed again...
this is my last chance...
i will appreciate...thank you GOD...
thank you to let me sad to make me become brave...
i should learn from this by now...
i should protect myself from the beginning...
maybe now wont so hurt...>.<
i hate myself...
i am a useless girlfriend...

(copy from old blog)

today is my second time get hurt...
this time i dont think this is small matter...
it realy sad and hurt...
i dont know should i forgive u ornot...
why keep hurt me??
why keep lie to me??
why one time yao one time gam hurt me??
am i good to buli??
izit my love is not deserve for you??
or you think we been together more than one year,
so i will never break with u then u keep hurt me??
i have gift many chance to you,
but why dont appreciate it??
do you still want this relationship??
do you still want be together wif me??
do you still respect me n this relationship??
you have no responsibility on this relationship...
you dont appreciate my love,my chance,my trust...
what u have done to me??
is hurt...
dont you think about my feeling when u lie to me??
dont you think about my feeling when you close with other girls???
dont you think about my feeling when you have fun???
all this thing i have never think...
you always after do something only regret...
you always say you are not purpose to do that...
but you still do it...
dont you think what u have do will hurt me??
if dont want to hurt me then dont do that la...
i have been together with u more than one year...
you stil dont know what i dont like,what i like??
you always said that i am the most important for you,
but u never prove it...
and i dont think so...why??
becouse i think ur entertain is important than me...
you can lie to me becouse u go pub...
you can lie to me becouse of ur friends...
then where am i??
i think i am the last and less important for you...
why i always dont trust you??
try to think about it??
from the begining i trust u much...
but why dont??
becouse you lie to me...you use my trust lie to me...
then how am i goin to trust u again??
you know i hate people lie to me,but you stil lie to me..
what that mean??it mean you dont care my feeling...
but you since like dont think that you are wrong...
you stil loud to me...
and find reason to cover your wrong...
what kind of this people??
how am i goin together with you??
when you close with other girl have you think about me??
did i do this to you??
even in pub,i also didt do this to you...
but why must be like this??
you are the one who not respect this relationship...
i though i finaly found a guy who realy treat me well...
and we can have a long relationship...
but you make me dissapointed...
i though you are different,but
you have no different with other guys...
you aready not that guy that i know when begining...
or maybe i not worth that u love me...

(copy from old blog)

finaly my result come out la...

hehe...this time i pass my paper aready...

i can go back kampar continue my study life lu...

that was another new begining for me...

i will try my best to study this time...

becouse i aready waste one year...

if not, now i aready study year two la...

aready 20 year old but just start diploma year one...

i will work hard for it...

lucky mostly my friends who study diploma they oso can proceed to year two...

that was a two good news for me on this year...

firstly, i have to say thank you to my dear...

becouse in this year he is the one who support me...

he beside me when the time i was sad n dissapointed...

until today he stil was beside me...

that day after check my result,he also very 'gan jiong'...

thank you for support me all the time...

before my result, another person very gan jiong that is my sister...

she keep sms me ask me,did i check my result..

haha...

one day got three sms..thank you for so sayang me...^^

thank you for everyone who support me...

i hope i dont make them dissapointed again...

hehe...

thank you...

hmm...

sometime realy dont know why a guy must everyday hang out with friends??i

zit one day stay at home is a hard thing??

everytime tell him about this...

dun knw why i realy dont like he always go out..

his mum also want him stay at home more...

i aready tell him that why the reason his mum say like that...

but why cannot listen and remember it??

hard to do thid thing??

until now also dont know what im angry???

did he remember what i have say to him??

why he dont understand my meaning??

why every time when i want to treat him good,then he will 'foong xi' le???

why want to make me angry??

sigh...

hate this feel...

why until now he stil cannot understand what im thinking??

he tell me he will change,but why always jz 3min only??

why cannot be longer???

what he have prove to me???

haiz...

dont know what should i do...

who can teach me???

(copy from old blog)

' life is hard '
agree this words??
emm...i agree...
when we were old that time,i think when think back de old memory
there sure alot of thing happen in our life...
our life is full of,
challenge...
lurch...
dissapointed...
regret...
happiness...
sadness...
and so...
when a person grow up,of couse the thinking is different...
and become alot of thing need to face...
need to worry...
need to solve...
need to understand...
different moment we have different memory...
and we learn from mistake...
every people will change in every moment when grow up...
become more mature thinking...
become more brave...
become understanding...
become consideration...
but life always full of changing...
maybe a rich guy can change to poor guy in a year??
maybe ugly change to pretty??
maybe fierce change to goodness??
maybe naive change to mature??
we dont know what we will change...
that only GOD know...
but life is precious...
once the GOD gift you life...
then you should appreciate it...
no matter how hard,
dun ever to gift up your life...
life is not too much time for us,
so do what you want to do...
dont let urself feel regret...
let ur life become more
meaningfull and colourfull...
my result will realise on more bout 9 hours...
now im very scare and nervous...
can i pass my paper???
it decide my future...
i hope i can pass...
GOD,please bless me...

(copy from old blog)

' Bye '
this word can say in many situation...
like when ur friend is leaving...
when hang up the phone...
or others...
tonight,my kai gor he will leave ipoh back to s'pora...
so fast...one week aready pass...
he come back one week for holiday..
bye gor...hope he will have a safety journey...
and take good care himself...
hmm...after secondary school,many friends they oso choose to work at s'pora...
after secondary school we also less time meet together...
sometime they come back 4-5 times in a year...
we not like last time so close when was secondary school...
sometime realy miss that time we was study..
we no need worry about many thing...
we always play together...
hang out together...
chit chat together...
go toilet together...
tuition together...
happy together...sad together...
bye,secondary life...we aready grow up...
many thing have to think...have to worry...
everyone oso work hard or study hard for their future....
everyone have their own life...
now everything become memory...
time always dont wait us...
after study at college...
i realize that people is reality...
and horror...
you will never know what they thinking and
chat they will do next step...
even the person close with you...
so..dont easy trust people...
learn to protect urself...
you will never know what will happen next min...
their are many change in our life...
so,ready the heart to accept challenge...
dont worry..be happy...everything will be ok...

(copy from old blog)

'Heart'
once you gift it to the one u love...
izit easy to say,"i don't want it anymore"??
emm...this depend to how much u love the person....
100%?80%?50%?
or maybe less than that??
is that easy to fall in love with someone??
Love a person is that hard??
why in a relationship will appear so many problem??
'sorry'
can a sorry jao nothing happen???
the answer is cannot,becouse after say sorry....
but didn solve the problem,the problem is stil there...
it will make another problem appear again...
once you take a decision together with the person u love then u have responsibility
to take good care and protect him/her....
if you realy serious in the relationship,
please dont easy to gift up...
dont try to betry ur partner...
dont try to hurt him/her...
dont easy to say break up...
once u hurt a person...that a scar in the heart forever...
the person will always remember how u hurt him/her or
how bad u treat him/her before...
so dont try to easy say "i dont want ur heart anymore"...
appreciate the 'heart' that people gift to you...

(this copy from my old blog)

what a lazy monday...kekeke...
i think many people also have a same thinking...
today wake up,i didn see any children again...
they move to another auntie house aready...
but they stil have thing leave at my house....
this moment i felt silent....
hahaha...today when to parade with my buddy (Karen)
we use about two hour walk the whole parade...
we didn see many people...we jz saw many worker....
haha...dont know why,i like to shopping with karen....
emm...maybe she will try clothes with me and gift me opinion...
we laugh at the fitting room....
we eat ice-cream together....
we eat fried fries together....
we chit chat about 8 po thing...
try clothes together...
felt comfortable shopping with her...
ahaha...
today is the first day my dear no need to work...
feel happy can see him on early time...
happy that he can spend his time to me...
happy that he was beside me...
feel safety when he was here....
thank you for always sayang me my dear...
thank you for always 'ti liang' me...
thank you for always 'qian jiu' me....
my heart there are a lot of thank you for becouse you are here....
even i didn tell out....
i hope you always beside me,then we will less argue...
i hope both of us will continue grow up together in every side...

(this is copy from my old blog,coz i forgot my password..
i have to create a new blog...sigh)