假期开始啦。。

期待已久的时刻到来啦。。。

一个月的假期要怎么度过呢？？

唉。。

想到处去却知道不可能。。

一只想望自由的小鸟最终还是要回家。。

我就像那只小鸟。。

想到处去却偏偏不能如愿以偿。。

所以这是其中一个原因我不想回家。。

很快的又新的一年。。。

却不知道新的一年有什么规划。。

好像过去的一年过得太快。。。

2011年又是新的一年了。。

哥哥今年要结婚了。。

我也长大一岁了。。

希望新的一年能过得充实。。

过得平平安安。。。事事顺利。。。

都能心想事成。。

当然希望还是不想被管得那么严。。。

Im suffer during exam this period...
full of stress...
i dont even get enough rest for myself....
omg...look very chan lo...
hmm...
after exam i will have about one month holiday...
time past fast...im in 2011 now...
last night whole night didn sleep because of Consumer Behaviour this sub...
but i think i have memorize it do not help in exam...
im afraid i cannot graduate with them...
im the older in our gang...
but also the one get worse result...
sometime i was thinking...
whether study is not suitable for me?
did i choose wrongly to come back here?
but i know i have no chance to turning back...
i hope the result is not that worse...
dunno why i was not in mood now...
i miss him...
hmm....
fight for another subject...>.<

how dare u are...

dare to hurt me like that...

i will never forget about this...

this is the most worse memory that you give me...

you totally hurt me deeply...

i don't know how to forgive u...

i dont't know how am i gonna face u....

hmm...once again u spoil ur image in my heart...

totally disappointed...

i really never think that u will treat me like that...

u not the one that i know from the begining...

suddenly i feel that i don't really know u...

im scared...

maybe he really not the right person which belong to me...

maybe v really not suitable for each other....

all the thing that i had done within this 3 year are wasted....

because what i get is such a heart broken treated..

i am so tired of it...

i wish i could let it go....

but i may not enough tough to do that...

GOD, please help me...

why he change become like that??

no reason make me feel confident to him again...

there are no trust between us anymore...

u should responsible with what u have done to me...

jingle belle jingle belle...

jingle all the way...

听到这几句就知道圣诞节要到啦。。。

很快的。。。一年又要结束了。。

今年好像过得特别快。。。

真不想时间那么快过。。

嘻嘻嘻。。

今天是平安夜。。

和往常一样到教堂去。。

不过今年不同的是我坐在观众席上。。

以前常想我几时能坐在观众席上呢？？

因为我真的很想观看完整晚的节目。。。

以前小的时候都是在后台准备表演。。

渐渐长大了。。

当了两年的司仪。。。

今年真的就可以坐在观众席上。。。

但是其实心情反而没什么圣诞心情。。

好像自己没有为圣诞节出份力。。。

没有像往年的紧张。。。

没有像往年的忙碌了。。。

哈哈哈哈。。。

长大啦。。

刚过二十一岁。。

看见别人都有自己的生日派对。。

今年我没有。。但是我有个愉快的旅程。。

今年的礼物比往年的都大份。。

虽然之前是有点不开心。。

但是原来许愿真的会实现的。。。

哈哈哈哈。。。

再过不久就要新年了。。

之后就要忙着考试了。。。

我不想。。但是没有选择。。。

华人农历新年后，我哥的婚礼又接近了。。。

但是真的有得忙咯。。

这一年里有开心，有不开心的。。。

虽然没能改变什么。。

至少我学到不少东西也体会不同的经历。。

我希望明年会更好。。。

主耶稣，生日快乐。。

希望大家都有个愉快的圣诞节。。。

The first night that without your call and message....

tonight my handphone was in silent mode...

and it show lonely in the night time....

feel bored...

thinking what are u doin there...

but i dont want call you...

maybe it is a challenge for us...

-------cold night-------

-------lonely night------

惭愧的一天。。

现在心里真的有够内疚的。。

唉。。

都怪自己耳朵软。。

轻易被人说服。。

唉。。

现在真的有点后悔。。

但是没办法啦。。

之后要乖点。。

不能乱乱来咯。。

真的是‘黑店’

哈哈哈哈。。。

今天盘骨又痛了。。

真辛苦啊。。

这样坐不对，那样坐又不对。。

唉。。搞到自己整个老太婆那样。。

嘴唇今天比较乖。。

比较好点了。。

嘻嘻嘻。。

又要赶讨厌的功课。。

开夜车啦。。

what a bad nite....

i hate de way u treat me....

im sleepy....

but cannot sleep....

my heart feeling not well....

HATE!!!

HATE!!!

HATE!!!

YOU always make me mad...

YOU always make me emo...

YOU always make me angry...

YOU always make me feel very geram....

how dare you do that to me...

i are so brave to treat me like tht...

i will remember how u treat me tonight...

very GOOD....